Dare to dream for the best version of yourself this 2023!
For this Dare to Tell story, here's is Eulli's Story!
I consider myself a fairly carefree kind of guy. In my mid-20s I find joy in simple things like newly cooked popcorn or watching movies but the unanticipated pandemic changed that. I had a stable job that allowed me to go to vacations with my family.
And then one day, what we have planned for, changed when I least expected it.
How I wish I was an innocent child who doesn’t have any idea of what’s happening. I lost my mother on a strange island because the nearest hospital was a 15 minute walk and it happened at 2:00 in the morning, wala pang transpo.
I felt helpless while the medical staff explained that they didn’t have the necessary equipment to take care of her but only two people can go so I couldn’t go with her. I felt helpless, desperate and lost count how many times I said “I love you, I’m sorry, I love you…” and that was the last time I saw her alive.
In my mind, I thought I was ready for what happened. But when it did already happen, I lost it. It felt like there was a switch that changed my life from how I knew it was before
It’s been two years and while I’m back to cherishing the most mundane things in life now, I feel that I have deeper care and appreciation of the people I’m close with and who were with me throughout those trying times.
I’m still trying to outgrow the pain I still carry with me up to now and try to remind myself of something I saw from one of the movies I’ve seen before — “Every time I feel that I’m empty: You don’t move on. You just become a bigger person until the void doesn’t feel as big (anymore).” (dabitab, 2014)
At the moment, I’d like to think I’m progressing with feeling with what life presents to me.
I’m better than I was before emotionally and mentally and have accepted that there are things beyond my control or too heavy for me to bear. I acknowledge what I feel, regardless if it’s small or big – valid siya.
I write it down on my journal and try to figure out what’s the best way to outgrow the big and small feelings. If it’s a good thing, I appreciate it and express my gratitude.
I set goals and make habits that I believe will be good for me because life will still go on. I’m at a point in my life where I’m still figuring things out, slowly, at my own pace knowing that these goals will benefit myself and the people around me.
Someday, I’ll get to the point in life where the void I carry would just become a forgotten memory.
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